For the past five years my room hasn’t been redecorated and according to my mother ‘You won’t be moving out anytime soon’, therefore I’ve decided to embrace this. I’m going to decorate my room the way I think a twenty-something year old bedroom should look like…
Not too sure what exactly that is, but I know for a FACT my bedroom is not it. To understand my bedroom, I’ve got to take you back to 2010– I had just got back from living in the Caribbean for two years, the room I left was no longer the same. Leaving, my room was this awful blue/grey coloured, which did nothing for the space except make it depressing. I don’t have any good photos of it unfortunately– but believe me when I say it was as dismal as it sounds.
In 2010 I came back to a light cream room, the same bedframe, my chest of draws and my beloved wicker chair. It was practically just… practical and that was it, my eighteen year old self only knew one way to decorate and hello magazine pages, hello bluetack and hello wall! I recruited a friend and together we made my little fashion wall of: sex, drugs and rock and roll! It was amazing for about 5 months…then I started university and I wanted something that was a bit cool but still fun and bright but not so eighteenie (if that’s even a word).
|Hello rocknroll psoter wall!|
1) Magazine shelf
2) Bedside table
3) Draws full of unknown junk
4) Stack of books and paper table
5) Cup and plate collector
Just believe me it was so damn useful! By the start of my second year I had: a desk, a computer to put on my desk, a bedside table and obviously the same furniture which already there. My bedframe however, seriously needed an update, subsequently I bought my second choice frame, when I say second choice, the bed frame of my dreams was £500+ (the sort of money I did not care to loose) so I got the other. After that nothing much had changed, I added some butterfly stickers, moved my posters around and that was it. I wasn’t happy though– I didn’t like the flow of my room and I still don’t.
|My room two years ago|
Last summer I decided to make a big change and took down all my self-made posters because I just thought well, I’m not a teenager anymore I need frames, not bluetack!
Off went the posters, my room felt naked without them– but also a little mature and then this April I decided that the butterflies needed to go to. The butterflies were the hardest, because I initially put them up after something really personal happened. For me the butterflies resembled the person I wanted to be and the freedom I wanted. The butterflies did their job and I felt this year I was ready to let them go.
What I’m left with is a very pale, blank space, almost similar to 2010... except dirtier walls. After having this epiphany, I’ve decided to make a ‘Bedroom fund’, essentially I plan to save and buy something towards making my room MY ROOM. And I really want to do this myself, upcycling, decorating the whole shebang!
So at present this is what my room looks like:
And here is the current floor plan:
I found some inspirational images to help me put it together:
And here’s the plan I’m aiming for:
Here’s is my business SMART plan (google it if you are unsure what it is)
Specific- Decorate my room to a very high standard with also using a small amount of money to complete it with.
Measurable- Measured by how much I do not want to leave my room after it’s done up!
Achievable- It is very possible for me to complete project if I do something every other month! Next few months I will focus on buying paint for walls and upcycling my chest of draws.
Realistic- Every month put £10 a side or more depending how much I can spare and buy something towards the room.
Time bound- I have until I’m 25 hopefully less!
Follow my bedroom journey while I turn this into a goddess of a room ;)
For the past 6 months, I have collected a few key pieces that I absolutely adore! I've chosen 9 of my best buys to show, it's kind of like a budget haul! Remember I did not purchase all these things all at once it's been over the course of the past 6 months!!
Anxiety, depression, and low self esteem these all things people would rather brush under the carpet as non-existent conditions and some even worse people would say it's an excuse for attention. In my generation a lot of young idols have confessed to some of these conditions such as: youtuber Zoella (Zoe Sugg), actress Lavern Cox and rapper Kendrick Lamar. With so many people confessing to these conditions why is it still considered a taboo subject?
In real, society will deem anything about vulnerability as a weakness and unfortunately having anxiety, depression and low self esteem is all collected as a weakness. NOBODY WANTS TO BE WEAK, RIGHT? When you're applying for a job you would never write 'I suffer from anxiety' because of course future employers wouldn't want to hire anyone who is a liability they want ambitions individuals who will be sure to turn up to work everyday. It's the sad but painful truth, of how your condition can been seen as "unprofessional". According to the Mental Health statistics in the UK, 1 in every five people suffer from depression! That's quite a high statistic meaning there is someone in every work place who is dealing with their depression, and maybe even has to hide it from colleagues and employers.
What many people misinterpret these conditions as being on a single spectrum, beliefs that there is only one type of severity people can suffer in also promotes this conception. Anxiety is quite normal in some people, everyone feels nervous or anxious at some point, however not everyone's anxiety can be measured in the same way. There are folks that can't even step on a bus because they suffer from extreme social anxiety. And depression, society think depression always equates to suicide; here's the thing you can be depressed but not want to take your life either! Imagine the strain of having very low self esteem, that it holds you back from applying for jobs or even being able to look at your self in the mirror? There is such a big scale in which these conditions can be measured, yet most people will have tunnel vision and not see the light.
What I'm trying to say is there should be more of a public understanding of these conditions, there should be more of an acceptance. Why should someone feel ashamed of their condition because everyone else would think of them as weak? While talking to a friend one day they expressed how there were some days her social anxiety stopped her from going to work, and there were times she had to force herself in because the fear of being sacked loomed on her. It got me thinking, should their be a law on how people and their mental issues effect them at work? Turns out there is a very wishy-washy law "The Disability Discrimination Act that came into force in 1995 outlaws much discrimination against disabled people in employment. Many people with or who have recovered from mental health problems are covered by it. To be covered you must have a 'clinically well-recognised mental illness' that is long-term (ie. has lasted, or is expected to last, at least 12 months, or is recurrent, or is likely to last for the rest of the person's life) and has a substantial effect on your ability to carry out normal day-to-day activities." meaning if you have not been medically diagnosed of having a mental issue, you could be sacked. What about those afraid to be diagnosed because of beliefs of others, religion and embarrassment?
Do think there should be leniency in the work place for sufferers and do think it's fair you could be sacked if you're not able to medically prove your illness?
Are you that somebody that suffers alone?
|The Body Shop slection from left: Body Shop facial brush, Body Shop Vitamin E Facial wash and Body Shop warming mineral mask.|
|Mixed selection from left: homemade face moisturiser, Garnier Miscellar cleansing water and St Ives apricot scrub invigorating|
I usually never have any money whatsoever to do hauls and even this is a very small haul. So I begin with my first purchase of October, I blogged about it on my day with Grazia magazine but on that same day I bought a Zara perfume. The perfume is called Zara with Love, I actually smelt it at the beginning of the year but didn't have the money to buy it then. The bottle smells overly sweet with hints of romance and love, I know how can something smell like love and romance? But seriously it does, it smells like the sort of perfume you would wear on a date (inside secret: my boyfriend loves it). When it comes to buying high st perfumes, I literally only shop at Zara; they have the best non-designer scents ever! Zara with Love is also such a bargain at only £12.99 for 60ml!
|Zara with Love|
Mid to ending of October I bought three Model's own beauty products, there was a special offer at their pop-up shop I think the deal was buy six items for £20, so me and my friend split it I bought three she bought her own three. I picked two nail varnishes and a mascara! I haven't bought nail varnishes in ages I think the last time was about a year and half ago maybe more. The last nail varnish I bought was a black Barry M one, but you could say I was in need of an update! I chose two very nude colours because they are very on trend at the moment and they look very luxxxxx ;) The two colours I got were Hyper Gel Naked Glow and Nude Beige they usually cost £4.99 so I think major bargain!!! To round off the deal I bought a mascara, right I haven't bought a mascara since 2010 (eeeekkk) I know I have broken the beauty no owning beauty products for more than a year code! Heck if I had money to throw away I would totally obey but poor ole me can't, but back to the story I bought the mascara and it's actually not that bad at all! It's called Mascara Big Brush and that is exactly what it is, it's really quite handy for really pushing the length of your eyelashes! The mascara is marketed at £5.99 so getting three products for ten pounds aint that bad at all!
|Models Own mascara and nail varnishes|
|Mac lipstick Retro Shade|
|Alexander WangX H&M yoga mat|
|Nike Sky Hi Revolution|
|Alexander WangX H&M T-shirt dress|