It's 2015, you've got that new year new me thing going on. I've been saying that for a very long time actually in fact for the past 6 years. This blog post is a very personal one but I'm hoping that being open will make me want to change for good reasons.
You might not know but I've been struggling with my weight since I was about 9 years old, around this time my body began to change into a little woman. Things that weren't there before were suddenly there and then came on the weight adding to it all. I've never been a small child in fact I've never been a small anything but it was still kinda alien to me. Since then instead of losing the puppy fat, I increased. It was a thing that every year I grew I put on a stone, it stopped around the age of 15 where I maintained that weight on/off. When I was 17/18 I lost stone in weight and it was the smallest I had been in a very long time, but that was while I was living in Trinidad and I put it all back on when I came back to London.
|At age 15 (the unedited version) I was a size 14/16|
On arrival to London I was happy to be home but I was also terribly depressed all my friends were no longer friends and I was starting Uni on top of it all. Then something very traumatic happened to me at 19. It was a very dark and horrible time for me, in fact I was suicidal. In this period I put on a stone and a half. I was at my biggest. I turned 20 still fat, still feeling ugly, still boy-friendless all the things I hated about myself. I became very lazy, and instead of doing something about my weight gain I sat and did nothing. I watched tv programs, went university, came home, did my work, watched more tv programs. It became my cycle. I was just really depressed.
|Age 17 in Trinidad and I lost a stone|
|At 19 after traumatic thing happened size 16/18|
|20 years old getting fatter...|
|Age 22 This is me at my current state *hides* solid size 18 maybe even bigger|
So here's to my 2015 journey! I will keep you updated with the progress!